I first heard the term “re-entry anxiety” the other week and I instantly related. Following being vaccinated, I had more social plans on my calendar and I started to feel anxious and drained by plans on certain occasions.
Have you felt re-entry anxiety? I have had a few weekends lately with two or three social plans and if one gets cancelled I feel a sense of relief – even if I had been looking forward to it. I suffer from anxiety as-is so I’ve really been keeping my circle rather closed – prioritizing time with very good friends. It’s been nice to have brunch again and more outdoor meals in my life and New York City definitely feels more alive lately. But things still feel quiet and empty at times and the mask wearing feels like a constant reminder of our reality.
I’ve been extremely grateful for the work I’ve had of late. It’s been a very, very busy season earlier on in the year than my industries typically warrant. It’s a major shift from this time last year as contracts were paused, cancelled and a lot of my paid work dried up. So every day I am counting my blessings and attempting to find ways to come down from the stress of the day.
And truth be told – I need a bit of a break. I’m so glad to be heading out of town later this week for my youngest brother’s family-only backyard wedding and then I’ll be going to Colorado for a change of scenery. I plan to take a week off because I haven’t taken any time off since December and I’m due for a mental health break.
I’m looking forward to time in the mountains with more fresh air, time spent reading and most of all time away from screens for a bit.
With more people getting vaccinated and things opening up I am feeling hopeful but I also remain cautious and aware of what is happening in other parts of the world. I am praying our vaccines continue to work, more people get vaccinated both here in the States and worldwide and that we can start to feel normal again. I miss normalcy.
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